Netflix: The Lost Daughter
This is probably an unpopular opinion, but I really loathed and was actually repulsed by the main character Leda in ‘The Lost Daughter’, played by Olivia Coleman. She has an affair and leaves her two...
View ArticleThe 21st Anniversary of My Very First Major Operation
It’s crazy to think that around this time 21 years ago I was rushed to hospital and they had to perform an emergency appendectomy. It was my very first time under the knife and pretty much a traumatic...
View ArticleAnxiety: Why Am I Wired This Way?
My brain has been wired by trauma to always think of the worse possible outcome, so that I can be prepared. I’m constantly in fight or flight mode. It’s a terrible state to be in and I wish I wasn’t...
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Catching the Sunrise
I am so glad we can now walk outside without our masks. It feels so liberating to be able to take a slow walk and breathe in the fresh morning air. Oh and a glimpse of that orange blue skyline is...
View ArticleDoes Midlife Begin When You Hit Menopause?
My sister is 50 but hasn’t hit menopause yet and has a remarkable amount of energy. The energy she has is comparable to what I had in my twenties which makes me wonder why I’m so defective. We share...
View ArticleMy History
Some blogs are truly engaging. Often I am so drawn in that I feel compelled to leave a comment. Usually the writer has been incredibly generous and brave with their life story. I can’t help but...
View ArticleConversations About The Second World War
We mentioned to my almost 86 year old uncle that we recently visited the National Museum. There was an exhibit about the Second World War and Japanese Occupation of Singapore. It made him recollect:...
View ArticleThoughts about Procrastination, Anxiety & Punctuality
Someone wise whom I spoke to recently, told me that she resolves her anxiety by doing something. Often she does something physical like go for a walk. This is so true. I find that when I actually do...
View ArticleThis Crazy Need to be Constantly Productive
I look at characters in movies and they get so much done within a day. It makes me feel like a sloth, as on some days, even waking up is a chore. There’s this constant need to be ticking off things in...
View ArticleMy Thoughts About Interviews & Ethics
In the past I’ve had a range of job interviews. Most of them have been soul crushing. It is why I will always be thankful to the interview panel at the New Zealand Embassy, even though I didn’t make...
View ArticleWhy it’s Better to Grow Up in Singapore Today Compared to the 70’s and 80’s
These are just my personal feelings (I’m a diary blogger & not a journalist by any means) based on my particular childhood experiences some of which I don’t wish to relive. Nothing set in...
View ArticleMy Sinnamma
My mum’s younger sister is in one significant way, like me. We are both childless by circumstance. I know for sure that my aunt always wanted kids, but in a selfish way I’m glad she didn’t or I...
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Playing the Piano Again
Loving Haydn I’m feeling so happy today. I bought a new piano book at Yamaha (the old time piano studio that still exists in Singapore after all these years). Playing something new helps me assess a...
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Grateful for Relaxing Moments: Flat Whites & Lattes at Cosy Cafes
It’s when I feel the most relaxed outside. I like going back to the same places. Cafe Aux Bacchanale and Da Paolo Gastronomia. Familiar friendly faces, good quality and comfy chairs. I do have social...
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Feel So Happy Meeting with Two of My Cousins After Almost 4 Years
I have social anxiety, but I don’t feel it with people I’m comfortable with like my cousins. I practically saw them grow up, being the much older cousin. They were the cutest toddlers. It’s true what...
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Manifesting Travel
My cousins put up their results of an online travel quiz, so I was curious enough to do it too. They are a dozen years my junior, so in comparison I really haven’t travelled that much. This survey...
View ArticleThoughts about Our Existence
As I get older, reality doesn’t seem as solid anymore. Everything feels hazy. Almost dream like. I absolutely can’t process that I’m 51 already and 52 next. Past the dreaded milestone (I also have...
View ArticleI Don’t Like Change
My favourite kind of days are regular days with routines that you are used to. They may be considered by extroverts to be boring. To me they are comforting. I love living in regular days with no...
View Article10 Things I Took for Granted During Covid Lockdown
1. Having peace, quiet and space to be able to relax and think. I’m tired of Corporations entering the sanctity of home through noisy Zoom meetings. 2. Being able to take public transport and have...
View ArticleTrying to Help Myself
I tend to build up negative scenarios in my head that never materialise in real life. Often they have to do with failure and rejection. Often these scenes appear in my nightmares when I try « not to...
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